waves of sunlight at sunsetas i've mentioned in my other post that i was exceptionally fine over my boyfriend or perhaps now my EX-boyfriend.... however....as the day drew on...... dark gloomy clouds hung in the sky and it soon stared pouring....... sunny-grandpa was crying for all the broken hearts out there...... so i started getting all emo-ish.... again....... as i thought about the 1st few mths into my relationship.....it was so sweet..........so real..........as if it could actually last........ even if not forever for at least a year..... so once more i called sin yin to go jog with me though it was actually drizzling quite heavily....as we jogged with earphones stuffed into our ears i started telling her bout my feelings and thoughts bout the break-up.....
luis told me before bout this girl who was living with him(the story of how she came to live with him is complicated and shall nt be mentioned)..........yessica is her name....... anywayz.......he admitted to me that he likes her during our mini break-up about a month ago but he said because of me he didn't go after her.......and she told me that she was going to move out cause she felt bad to me as she loved him too.........sooo.....i was just thinking....if he really gt together with her now........if he appears on her doorstep and tells her about his undying love for her, i'm sure she'd be really happy........i can actually picture her happy face as she embraces him, feeling warm, loved as tears of joy stream down her face cause she knows that he's hers now...... and i feel happy for her though there's still a slight pang of sadness in me....
as i step into my room...i think...'this is where i'd dreamt of him and all the possibilities that were in store'
no matter what.....one day i'm gonna meet him....cz i wanna meet the guy that i loved and who also loved me.... who knows?? maybe we'll fall in love again.....
i realized that i don't love him as much too..... in fact.... i think david archuleta's 'crush' is coming true for me..... that day......after speaking to han hui on the phone.....i felt something deep inside.... honestly speaking, i'm pretty excited in what the future holds for me and i await with great anticipation....
when you come to think of it......why be sad over a break-up?? in the 1st place he's definitely NOT mr. right or we both would have worked out.....so i'll keep on searching for the one who'll cherish the love i give him.....
thanks to the influence of sin yin.....i now feel like all these love, relationships are all a game......and I'll be sure to choose a dangerous mode..... after all.....that is the fun in life is it not??
To Luis Alberto Lagos Collado, THANKZ FOR THE MEMORIES!! We shall meet again!! I swearz!! XD
*No one can truly love me except he who understands the deepest core of my heart*
~Choc addict~
yeaaaaa i may look inoccent buuuuut....... you seriously do not want to be near me when i'm hyper!!!! because i'd be seriously 100% insane!!! (it occurs extremely frequently)
